gaMbate....tis word is not easy for me now =.=
dOnO.... is a good word to use @_@
nOthing.... is a word to avoid all things Q_Q
AnyThing.... is a simple word to decide >_<
craZy....is a future word to descride myself x.X
cutE....is da word i hope to always be ^^
stUpid....is word tat follow me all da time *c*
saD.... is a muz word by now T_T
DisapOinted.... is word tat is now filled my tiny brain #_#
lOusy.... is da word i am now feeling of ~_~
Fly....is what always happen only in dreams #_#
fUcked Up....always get in my way -_-
smth happened .... really i stress me brain a lot coz of it ... can't even slp properly...
he says tis is da his way if i cant agree of it then v could't get along for any longer...he says i'm selfish for wanting him to follow my way n i nv tot of his feeling but in the other hand he wans me to follow his way arent he too selfish, he juz couldn't follow my way but if i follow his way i'm suffering ... y cant he juz tolerate a lil for me if he still like me... i nv ask for any daily report ... i juz wish he will juz pay a tiny little bit more attention on me let me know he cares...
i've hav looking for excuses to persuade myself tat he cares n i juz hav to stay beside him edure then will b alright ... i guess i was wrong even we've fight but he still don really care nv change at all. i really hope at least can he be a lil more caring of me make me feel like being care n lov like a gf but no... nv...? m i tat not important tat he nv tot of care any bit of me ??? to him im like no body at all unless when he needs me ... his game is more important then me how pathetic m i ???
Even though i try to endure , after he graduate he starts working everything will get worst ... till then i think he will not care for me at all since he'll hav more excuses not to care for me... so y m i to torture myself to stay wit a person tat not care me at all whom i gave everything to ???he could even tok of other gals in front of me like i nv exist he will nv know ashame i felt n how hurt it is within me? can anyone out there answer me : is tat too wrong for a gf to her bf to care for her even when da time they dont meet each other??? If a bf lov gf will he naturally care n miss her then will wanting to share his things or get to know her situation??? maybe he might tot tis is not important izit not important to him o theres no love anymore???
it is important y cant he tolerate and tot of how i feel, instead he said i'm selfish... everything v fight which he think not important then he'll blame me for not think of how he feels by quarrel wit him... in the opposite did he ever think of my feeling of coz its important to me onli i voice out ... he nv change coz he think i da 1 who is wrong for picking out fight. Is there none other solution... i'm afraid i will miss him...
shout for 4 and a half hours Went KTV with my best fren and her house mates... had a great damn fun but shout too much it hurts my throat T_T but still FUN FUN FUN ^^ V sang stupid oldies and some hokkien song also malay song !!! LoL ... now i start to familiar with my fren's house mates d then i tok crap they tok cock =.= then after KTV v went to a new cafe near to my fren's house to hav dinner and listen to ppl sing after v listen to ourself da whole day ^^
Faded fairy dust, weaken magic, miracle decaying
3:53 AM
* Monday, October 15, 2007 *
SWIM SWIM (12/10) me n qiao went swimming last Fri... actually she don know how to but she ask me to swim wit her ... ok i taught her how to swim but da worst part is she don even put her head under da water how m i goin to teach her swim !!!!!!!!!!!!! XD yet we did lots of funny things lol.....
my SUPPRISE b'day prezzie (13/10) its a key chain super nice as it is... it given by keith ^^ he put it with my key when i'm not alert then say my old key chain so not nice then ask me to hav a look at it ... then i'm like y do i need to look at my key chain like i nv look at it b4 ??? yet he still criticize on it then felt so weird y he suddenly talk of my key chain !? then later i notice smth wrong with my key chain seems different as i see from far... then i take out n i saw another beautiful key chain full with heart shape on it !!! i like it vry much ^3^ thx dear !!!
So cool and touched ... my hometown fren celebrate wit me on my b'dy. V went to a lounge name TAO ^^ at first i tot its oonli a normal gathering as my b;day then an unexpected b'day cake pop out !!! lol.... then da lounge free me alcoholic drink name Lamborghini .... i was drunk by da time i get bck home ... all my fren force me to drink coz its my 21th b'day ^^ now i know da feeling of being drunk, my head is heavy and my brain is froze and numb can't function properly... then i call some of my fren n i din even remember till they tell me da nxt day =.= heres a vry short clip of served of lamborghini ^^
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